I started my art career as a filmmaker. Before that I did photography from an early age. I never really saw myself attaching to painting the way that I have, but something just clicked about a year ago.
In this video I explain why painting is important to me. The flow state it gives me, and the ability to be alone in a positive way, have really changed my life for the better. Painting has helped me avoid relapse on multiple occasions and painting has pulled me out of deep depressions.
There's a lot of mixed opinions about the art showcases RAW: Natural Born Artists holds.
Most of my artist friends have been approached by RAW to do a show at one point or another. I only knew one or two that had done the showcase, most others' consider it too expensive or even a scam in some cases.
I wanted to find out for myself, so I said yes.
This post is going to go through my experience. Maybe it will help you decide if a RAW showcase is right for you. Or maybe you're not an artist and this will be an interesting look behind the scenes.
WHAT IS RAW?
In case you're not familiar, RAW: Natural Born Artists is a for-profit organization that puts together multi-disciplinary art showcases in various cities across the world.
They also have a huge website dedicated to artist profiles, art industry resources, merchandise, and more.
Impostor syndrome: a belief that you’re an inadequate and incompetent failure, despite evidence that indicates you’re skilled and quite successful.
I often suffer from this delusion despite constant praise from those around me. There was once a sense of “they are just being nice,” but even as I overcame that paranoia it evolved into “they don’t know what makes good art/writing/film/design, so how would they know.”
I’ve worked very hard at any craft that I’ve taken on, but naturally I always see ways I could be better. I am friends with incredibly skilled artists, which my work always feels inadequate in comparison.
My realization though, is that my work is relatively unique. It’s not the best at anything, but when I get out of my own head and create from a place of emotion, people find my work interesting. Shouldn’t that be enough?.
I’m obviously not the only one dealing with imposter syndrome (it’s apparently quite common), so I want to be completely transparent about it so that you know you are not alone.
This is a series of paintings I worked on from 2016-2018 in which I experimented with different amounts of detail and realism in black and white portraits. These were some of my first paintings. I set out with the goal to paint a face and initially limited myself to black and white as to keep cost down. Quickly, though, I fell in love with the feel of this style.
As you can see, I really experimented with varying degrees of realism for a style that on the whole ends up feeling very surreal. Even the most photorealistic of the portraits have this surreal feeling due to the accented highlights and the lack of color.